Writing Challenge Day 5
Not much I can write about my parents & I don’t really comfortable with it . Let’s start from my mother dia pekerja keras, dulu saat susah dia juga ikut bekerja sepanjang hari. The thing I dislike about her, She’s kind of a person who always needs self validation(sorry Mom).
My Dad is a hard worker too. when we’re at the bottom he’s always trying his best at everything. Now we're a middle class family. He looks like he will take revenge for what the past did to him. Like he’s started smoking, or gambling. I don’t really mind tho, it’s normal here. quick fun fact: Bali is LasVegas of Indonesia, gambling not really illegal here as long as you bribe the police(ACAB y’all). Even some gamble is part of our culture, like Cock Fighting. no no don’t laugh i mean male chicken. That's what literally my Dad t -shirt is written. He’s one of the staff there. Oh yeah my dad work as a public servant(PNS?) and part time in the cock fight arena(I swear cock fight sound so wrong). It happens every saturday and sunday so it’s not take his time. Even though he's a gambler he’s always making sure his family is the top priority. I feel like he’s having a different life with his family and the outside world.It’s as he’s here but not here at all. Hard to explain.
When I was a kid my parents never picked me up, they were too busy with work.It seems like they provided what I needed, nor what I wanted.I stayed with my Grandma. I barely knew my house. For young me house is like a place to sleep and do homework and that’s it nothing more. Often I starved myself cuz i'm too afraid to ask my grandma about food(I was a shy kid). I have a brother but he won’t babysit me, he said I’m a crybaby. ffs I’m 6 year old what did ya expected. I don’t have friends till I'm in 3rd grade so most of the time I am alone. Even now Living alone is fine with me,No matter where, I’m always alone anyway. I simply live with it.
I Don't have a colorful family, we never take holiday together. Maybe that’s why I love movies with a family theme in it, so I can insert myself in that story. For example Steven Universe. I always dreamed to have family like Greg. But that’s just my dream.
Even now I feel like I'm still a burden. With or without me this family is still the same. it would be better if I never existed.
I’m sorry if I’m a burden
i’m sorry for everythings
I never asked to be me
I never asked to be made
“No one can justify life by linking happy moments into a Rossary.”
-Shinji Ikari
End of day 5
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