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pic by Henri Pham @henrihere  unsplash (Writing Challenge Day 19) I don’t in the mood to write this topic. Maybe this is will be a short one. Everyone may say their first love is their parent. well, I can’t argue with that but I’m gonna write about my first girlfriend. My first love didn’t go well. I mean we’re still a kid. Teenage homo sapiens with their stupid hormones. Wait do 12 years old count as teenage or still a kid? Adolescence may be the right word. So what the dumbness we do you ask? skipping school together, idk basically we think that we’re the only person in the world. We were in the same school but both of us are shy so we infrequently go out together.  The predicament is her parent, her Mom to be exact. Her Mom is a remarkably conservative type of person. Yes, we are kinda in a backstreet relationship. If I’m in her mom’s shoes would I let the only one 11 years old daughter have a boyfriend? Maybe no, especially not to a messy guy like me. The worst is her mom is a tea

Writing Challenge day 18: Thirty Facts About Me Hi I’m back. It’s more than a month since my last blog post. First of all, I apologize to five people who are always reading my blog posts. I don’t know if you're a real human or just a bot, no judge. Honestly I’m waiting for your feedback in the comment section. 30 facts about me eh? idk where to start, should i make it to ‘list’ format? I don’t mix my porridge yeah I know it’s an overused joke but still, why would you? I’m Pansexual Yeah go ahead joke about Pan. I might still be laughing. Why I’m pan? idk bruh, why are you str8? imho I couldn’t care less about gender nor sexuality. Love is love(and consent.) Freedom love(and hate) whom you be. I heard people on LGBT community saying something like ”Pan people just Bi who are trying to be different”. Again i don’t really care. I exist as who I am, No one can’t tell me what I am. Fat. A few days ago I was officially under 100kg(thank depression /jk). but still I have more workout to d

(Writing Challenge Day 17: Way To Win My Heart) Emang ada ya orang yang mau sama gue? Someone who wants my heart seems impossible to me(Except in a literal way). For instance, I’m not attractive. I need to grind myself so someone like me. I wonder how it feels when someone loves you, loves you just because who you are, not what you do for them. Back to topic I think the easiest way  to win my heart is just be yourself and give me some of your love. You don’t get me I don’t get myself either. also extra point if you’re team Indomie and bubur tidak diaduk.

  Writing Challenge Day 16: Someone I Miss I miss a lot of people lately. My old friend who’s moved out to other city, My highschool friends, Ibu kantin yang harus terpaksa kembali ke sawah karena sekolah masih diliburkan, My crush who’s currently live in red zone 🥰🥰, even my internet friend with all his assignment. good luck with all of that!! Idk if they’re all missing me too. It’s okay if they don’t. I've been feeling a lil bit lonely lately. Gue bingung yang mana harus gue ceritakan hari ini. Maybe my crush? So last time I met here maybe 3 years ago, yeah by that it’s clearly one sided love. Gapapa berharap kan, cinta bukan hanya tentang memiliki(yes i listening Rintik Sedu too much). Jadi dia itu teman sekelas dulu, tempat duduknya persis di depan gue. Rumah kita sama - sama jauh dari sekolah tapi anehnya kita selalu pertama yang di kelas. Karena kesamaan itu kita sering berduaan di kelas. Gue selalu ingat senyumnya yang manis. Suaranya yang lembut menenangkan hati. She’s so

Writing Challenge Day 15: If You Run Away Where would you go? I wish that I could say that there's no better place than home, but home’s a place that I have never known. Staying at home since this quarantine has been really awful to me. Can’t really explain due to personal info, but If you read my past blog post you must understand. If I could run away I would go anywhere except at my  own home.  Sebenarnya sejak dari dulu gue sudah run away, di kampus  gue selalu tinggal lebih lama dari teman - teman lainnya. Agar di rumah tinggal tidur atau mengerjakan tugas.  Kadang kalau ada uang lebih biasanya nongkrong di warung kopi dekat kampus, duduk berjam-jam hanya memesan caffe latte. Kadang bareng teman lebih seringnya sih sendiri. Tapi semua itu sebelum pandemi ya, kalau sekarang ya gitu deh. Sebenarnya udah punya rencana bulan Oktober nanti buat pindah terus tinggal di Kosan tapi gara-gara si Covid ini gak kunjung-kunjung reda jadi terjebak deh ditempat yang katanya ‘rumah. Kalau bis

Writing Challenge Day 14: Describe Your Style Sebenarnya pakaian gue itu cuma terdiri dari 3 macam, pertama pakaian casual yang sering dipakai di sekitaran rumah terdiri dari baju polos tanpa merek, kedua pakaian formal dipakai buat ngampus atau lagi daily report, ketiga dan yang paling spesial merch dari fandom.  Entah kenapa kalau udah suka sesuatu gue pasti selalu beli merch nya apalagi kalau ada yang official. Salah satunya gue kan suka tuh sama serial animasi We Bare Bears nah tanpa pikir panjang serta keimpulsifan gue langsung order di toko hijau. Hoodie dengan motif Ice Bear pun terbeli. 200rb an, harga hoodie ini cukup mahal menurut kantong mahasiswa gue. Tapi kalau menurut gue ini worth banget karena kualitas kainnya bagus dan tebal. Bahkan sampai sekarang gue masih pakai. Gue juga beli jaket varsity mirip yang dipakai Steven Universe Future, cukup susah nyari yang motif nya sama. Sayangnya gue beli size nya salah jadinya kekecilan, berakhir tergantung di lemari tanpa pernah d

Writing Challenge Day 13: Favorite Book Ketika mendengar Haruki Murakami apa yang terbenak dipikiran kalian? Norwegian wood? 1Q84? The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle(Judul di Indonesia: Burung Pegas)?. Diantara para ‘normies’ mungkin yang paling terkenal adalah Norwegian Wood. Mungkin karena gaya penulisan nya yang agak ‘normal’ dan ada bumbu-bumbu romance. Biasanya Tulisan Pak Murakami penuh dengan gaya-gaya surealisme, misalnya saja labirin di dalam hotel, sumur kering yang bisa membuatmu ber project astral atau hujan lintah di siang hari.   Kalian tau gak kalau ada novel keren karya beliau lainnya yang  berjudul “Kafka On The Shore”. Buku ini diterjemahkan pada tahun 2005 dan menambatkan penghargaan "The 10 Best Books of 2005" dari The New York Times.  Secara singkat buku ini menceritakan tentang dua plot berbeda. Pertama dari sisi pemuda bernama Kafka Tomura, remaja SMP yang kabur dari ayahnya untuk menghindari kutukan sambil mencari keberadaan Kakak perempuan dan Ibunya. Spoiler

Writing Challenge Day 12: Favorite TV series Play this song while reading this:   “If every porkchop were perfect we wouldn’t get hot dog” kata Greg kepada anaknya. Hybrid son of the diamond. Human son of a rose dialah Steven, Steven universe. I really really love this show. Jadi Steven Universe itu adalah cartoon show dari CN buatan Rebbeca Sugar. It is Cartoon Network's first animated series to be created solely by a woman. Steven Universe bercerita tentang petualangan seorang anak yang bernama Steven Universe(no shit sherlock) ia tinggal bersama the Crystal Gems—magical, humanoid aliens bernama Garnet, Pearl, and Amethyst. Mereka berpetualang bersama untung melindungi bumi dari serangan gem dari luar. Steven adalah setengah Gem dan Setengah manusia. Rose Quartz adalah Ibunya sedangkan dari sisi manusia, Ayahnya Greg Universe. Tema dalam series ini berfokus kepada Cinta, Keluarga dan pentingnya mencintai diri sendiri. Fairly warning This show contains a lot of Lesbian Space Rock.

 Meh... ill pass this one. I Already wrote some point one my note but most of it are bad memories. I don't wanna swimming in sadness

Writing Challenge Day 10 If you read this blog post I assume you’re my best friend. The past post only got like 5 readers. Number doesn’t mean anything to me but still i think only my friend would read my story and I really appreciate that.  Does a close friend on IG count as ‘best friend’? some people added me as their close friend. Bro we weren’t talking for like five year but still thanks tho🥺🥺 .   Definisi best friend itu apa sih sebenarnya? Gue menganggap beberapa orang sebagai ‘best friend’ apakah mereka juga sama? I don’t have many friends since college but I think most of them are my best friends. Hey if You read this please let me know If I’m your best friend 🥺🥺.

Writing Challenge Day 9: Write About Happiness Isn't it almost the same with day 2? What is happiness? Wikipedia said happiness is emotional states, including positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. So are you happy now or recently happy? how’s it feel? I miss feeling happy. idk what happened with me recently but things seem blurry. I don’t know what happened to me. Unexplained sadness, sudden changed mood even small things like making small mistakes triggering my sadness.  Playing video games usually makes me happy, but it didn’t work anymore. It just feels like happy but not content, Hard to explain. What is Wrong with me? A year ago many people wished me a happy birthday but am I really Happy? Why am I live? I fear but what could be worse than this suffering? end of day 9

(Writing challenge day 8: The power of music) Kerja sambil dengerin lagu, makan dengerin lagu, main game masih  sambil dengerin lagu, bahkan saat nulis ini gue dengerin lagu, lagu dari mbak NIKI. BTW niki baru baru ini merilis album berjudul Moonchild. Single favorite gue di album ini berjudul Lose kalian harus banget dengerin lagu ini.  Gue hampir gak pernah bosen dengerin lagu, mungkin karena pilihan lagu gue bermacam-macam mulai dari indie, pop, rock, rap, bahkan dangdut(Not occasionally). Mulai dari berbagai tahun, dari 80 an ada the beatles & Queen, 90 an dan awal-awal 2000aj ada lagu-lagu dari blink-182 dan green day, lagu dari tahun-tahun ini yaitu Rich Brian, Joji, Niki, and Jack Stauber. Gue juga masih dengerin lagu dari Indonesia kok misalnya .feast, Hindia sama Danila.  Bukannya Sok Indie atau untuk status que tapi lagu dari band Indo diatas emang bagus kok. gue kalau dengerin lagu itu tipe orang yang lebih mementingkan lirik dari pada musik instrumennya sendiri. Bukan b

Writing Challenge Day 7: Your Favorite Movie Play the song above. Komm , süßer Tod , Come, Sweet Death “No one understands me.” “You never understood anything.” “I thought this was supposed to be a world without pain, and without uncertainty.” “That's because you thought that everyone else felt the same as you do.” “You betrayed me!  You betrayed my feelings!” “You misunderstood from the very beginning. You just believed what you wanted to believe.” “Nobody wants me so they can all just die.” “Then what is your hand for?” “Nobody cares whether or not I exist, and nothing ever changes…” So they can all just die. ” “Then tell me, what is your heart for?” “It would be better if I never existed…” I should just die too.” “Then why are you here?” “Is it okay for me to be here?” *SILENCE. Kutipan dari salah satu film favorite gue, Neon Genesis Evangelion. Sesuai tema hari ini yaitu film favorite. Kutipan di atas terjadi saat Shinji berada di Human instrumjflosah;e;ioh Project, dimana semu